How to Take Back Your Love for Quilting
Have you ever had something happen that just stole your love for quilting? Maybe you overheard someone say something really harsh about a quilt that you worked really hard to make. Maybe it was an overly critical comment on a quilt you put into a juried show. Maybe it wasn’t one thing; maybe it was just the continual lack of time to actually do it, and slowly but surely, you just stopped making them. You didn’t stop wanting to make them, you just were afraid to make them; too worried it wouldn’t be good enough, or the stress of trying to carve out the time to quilt became too much.
I have been at this place. To be honest, a part of me still is at this place. I hadn’t lost the desire to create; I hadn’t run out of ideas. I still bought patterns and fabric; I still sketched ideas and I still sat down at my machine sometimes, but the love, the joy, had been replaced by fear and self-consciousness of what others will think of my work.
And then one day, I decided I wanted the joy back. I wish I could sit here and tell you that like an Olympic athlete, I turned those negative thoughts and comments that people had made about my work into positive fuel to get me back on my feet, but I didn’t. No, those thoughts and comments still haunt me sometimes. What I don’t let them do anymore is stop me.
These are some steps that I took to get my love for quilting back and some advice on how to not take someone’s love for quilting away from them. I am telling you this because I have a feeling I am not the only one who has been here. I am probably not the only person who has felt sadness because they just want to make something, but feel paralyzed to do so. I am pretty sure I am not the only one that has said to themselves, “I just want to sew and have it be fun. Even if it’s not perfect.”
So here are my steps and I hope it helps someone who has been in this place too:
- Make something small that is just for you. When you have gone many months without making anything, the best way to get back started is to make something small and simple that is just for you. Something that you don’t have to show anyone if you don’t want to. My something small was a self-lining bag, similar to this one here. The one I made was smaller to hold shoes when traveling and I didn’t do any embroidery on it. I just made the bag. It got me behind my machine and in the end, I came out with a completed project. I didn’t show anyone, I just took it to my closet and used it the next time traveled. It was a great first step. I made something and it was useful! I felt good about it. A little love came back into my heart.
- Go through your UFO’s (UnFinished Objects) and find one that is almost done and finish it. I had a landscape quilt that I had started when I was learning how to do landscape quilts. It wasn’t very good at all which is why it wasn’t finished. It only needed to be trimmed up, one border added and the binding. So I finished that little landscape. Yay! Finished! I got to sit in my sewing studio and enjoy the victory of a completed project. I hung it on my sewing studio wall and admired it. It wasn’t perfect, but it was finished and that made me love it.
- Do all the utility sewing that you have been putting off. I know this sounds strange, but when I decided to tackle that pile of pants that needed hemming, skirts that needed to be taken in and pillows with holes that needed mending, I started to say to myself, “Oh yeah, this is why I quilt! This kind of sewing isn’t fun!” But I also got that satisfaction of getting something done and I was beginning to lose the anxiety that I had previously felt every time I sat behind my sewing machine. That negative voice that had been in my head telling me that my work wasn’t good enough was starting to fade. My hemming of those pants was good enough! I patched the holes in those pillows like a boss! I started to believe in myself again…just a little bit.
- Make a quilt that needs to be made. You know the saying, “The Lord works in mysterious ways?” That is certainly true for what really gave me my love for quilting back. I have friend who was very, very sick and I needed to make her a quilt. She was going to be in the hospital for another surgery and I just knew that a quilt full of blocks that had been signed by her friends would give her strength. I didn’t have a choice. This quilt had to be made no matter how I felt. So I picked a very simple pattern (rail fence) and I put together the top. I took the extra steps, like squaring up the blocks, and quilted it. It wasn’t perfect, it wasn’t fit for a juried show or even a blog post, but it was perfect for my friend. She loved it and I loved making it. I truly loved every stitch, even the not-so-perfect ones. That is when I came to my final step:
- Fire the Quilt Police that are hanging out in your head. I decided that I know longer cared what people thought of my work, and more importantly, I decided to stop being so hyper-critical of it myself. All too often, the negative voice is my very own. I was not going to let the comments of others, or my own negative comments about my work, steal the love I have for quilting. I made a conscious decision to start making things that I like to make, to the best of my ability and continue to get better at my own pace. The beautiful thing is: I now LOVE quilting again! I have started working on new quilts and thinking up new projects to make. I am back behind my sewing machine with joy instead of anxiety. I am currently working on 2 new quilts and one past-project that I had been avoiding. Quilting is once again my stress relief, instead of something that was causing me stress, and I am so happy about that!
This wouldn’t be a complete post if I didn’t offer one piece of advice on how to not cause someone quilting anxiety. For most of us, sewing and quilting is more than just a hobby; it is an extension of who we are as people. It is our artistic expression and in some ways, a revealing of our soul. Be kind to your fellow quilter. When you see her (or his) work, find something nice to say about it, and only offer a critique if it is appropriate and you know them well enough to know how to tell them something that will help them be a better quilter. Telling them you just don’t like it, or that those colors are awful, isn’t helpful.
Let’s not steal each other’s joy for this amazing art. Let’s build each other up.